Archive for November, 2011


Think I’d feel less judged in a courtroom:

These last few months have been so challenging, on so many different levels. I am a very verbal person, but that does not mean everyone wants to hear what I have to say….thats lesson one.

Lesson two, some elders will never respect you, regardless of how smart/capable you are…to them you are young and unable to disseminate anything intellectual, these folks are closed-minded, ignore their ways and save your energy.

Lesson three, just breathe, if you are stressed out dont vent to someone who will only adopt the stress and not provide relief/support…because if you do you’ll just add 1 more person to the stress.

Lesson four, this too shall pass. Don’t make permanent choices for temporary situations

Lesson five, you too have things to learn, so be open, but dont just swallow all that’s being fed, find out the why behind what is being taught. It makes you a better a student and a better teacher down the line.

Ive learned a lot more but Ill leave it at that for now. I hope 2012 proves to be a year of great promise, 2011 has brought me great things (greatest of all my son Alhamdulillah). However it was a highly emotional/hormonally imbalanced year too. God willing 2012 proves to be better.


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Still I Rise- Maya Angelou

You may write me down in history

With your bitter, twisted lies,

You may trod me in the very dirt

But still, like dust, I’ll rise.

Does my sassiness upset you?

Why are you beset with gloom?

‘Cause I walk like I’ve got oil wells

Pumping in my living room.

Just like moons and like suns,

With the certainty of tides,

Just like hopes springing high,

Still I’ll rise.

Did you want to see me broken?

Bowed head and lowered eyes?

Shoulders falling down like teardrops,

Weakened by my soulful cries?

Does my haughtiness offend you?

Don’t you take it awful hard

‘Cause I laugh like I’ve got gold mines

Diggin’ in my own backyard.

You may shoot me with your words,

You may cut me with your eyes,

You may kill me with your hatefulness,

But still, like air, I’ll rise.

Does my sexiness upset you?

Does it come as a surprise

That I dance like I’ve got diamonds

At the meeting of my thighs?

Out of the huts of history’s shame

I rise

Up from a past that’s rooted in pain

I rise

I’m a black ocean, leaping and wide,

Welling and swelling I bear in the tide.

Leaving behind nights of terror and fear

I rise

Into a daybreak that’s wondrously clear

I rise

Bringing the gifts that my ancestors gave,

I am the dream and the hope of the slave.

I rise

I rise

I rise.

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Utterly In Love

The birth of my son took place on November 1st, 2011. I was in labor for over 24 hours. I never would have guessed that my baby would have arrived approximately 11 days before his due date, nor could I have ever imagined the pain involved with labor…..but really of all things, I never understood love in such a pure and honest way as I do now. Thank God for that.

I am utterly in love with my son. He is absolutely mesmerizing. I pray to be the best mother I can possibly be for him and any future babies. I pray he will grow into a good, intelligent, and strong person. I am just so grateful.

There is so much satisfaction in simply enjoying the sight of him….finally my little guy is here, and I have never been happier ❤

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